Cur, quaeso, domine deus meus? utcumque video, sed quomodo id eloquar nescio, nisi quia omne, quod esse incipit et esse desinit, tunc esse incipit et tunc desinit, quando debuisse incipere vel desinere in aeterna ratione cognoscitur, ubi nec incipit aliquid nec desinit. ipsum est verbum tuum, quod et principium est, quia et loquitur nobis. sic in evangelio per carnem ait, et hoc insonuit foris auribus hominum, ut crederetur et intus quaeretur, et inveniretur in aeterna veritate, ubi omnes discipulos bonus et solus magister docet. ibi audio vocem tuam, domine, dicentis mihi, quoniam ille loquitur nobis, qui docet nos, qui autem non docet nos, etiam si loquitur, non nobis loquitur. quid porro nos docet nisi stabilis veritas? quia et per creaturam mutabilem cum admonemur, ad veritatem stabilem ducimur, ubi vere discimus, cum stamus et audimus eum, et gaudio gaudemus propter vocem sponsi, reddentes nos, unde sumus. et ideo principium, quia, nisi maneret, cum erraremus, non esset quo rediremus. cum autem redimus ab errore, cognoscendo utique redimus; ut autem cognoscamus, docet nos, quia principium est et loquitur nobis.
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Why, I beseech Thee, O Lord my God? I see it in a way; but how to express it, I know not, unless it be, that whatsoever begins to be, and leaves off to be, begins then, and leaves off then, when in Thy eternal Reason it is known, that it ought to begin or leave off; in which Reason nothing beginneth or leaveth off. This is Thy Word, which is also "the Beginning, because also It speaketh unto us." Thus in the Gospel He speaketh through the flesh; and this sounded outwardly in the ears of men; that it might be believed and sought inwardly, and found in the eternal Verity; where the good and only Master teacheth all His disciples. There, Lord, hear I Thy voice speaking unto me; because He speaketh us, who teacheth us; but He that teacheth us not, though He speaketh, to us He speaketh not. Who now teacheth us, but the unchangeable Truth? for even when we are admonished through a changeable creature; we are but led to the unchangeable Truth; where we learn truly, while we stand and hear Him, and rejoice greatly because of the Bridegroom's voice, restoring us to Him, from Whom we are. And therefore the Beginning, because unless It abided, there should not, when we went astray, be whither to return. But when we return from error, it is through knowing; and that we may know, He teacheth us, because He is the Beginning, and speaking unto us.
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Tell me, O Lord my God, how this can be? In a kind of way I see, but how to express it I do not know: save that whatever comes into being and ceases to be, begins at the moment and ends at the moment when the eternal reason—which has in itself no beginning or ending—knows that it should begin or end. That eternal reason is Your Word, the Beginning who also speaks unto us. This He tells us in the Gospel to our bodily ear, this He uttered exteriorly in the ears of men: that we might believe in Him, and seek Him within us and find Him in the eternal Truth, where the one good Master teaches all His disciples.
There it is that I hear Your voice, Lord, telling me that only one who teaches us is speaking to us, and that whoever does not teach us may be speaking, but not to us. Yet who teaches us save Truth unchanging? When from changing creatures we learn anything, we are led to Truth that does not change: and there we truly learn, as we stand and hear Him and rejoice with joy for the voice of the bridegroom, returning to the Source of our being. Thus it is that He is the Beginning: unless He remained when we wandered away, there should be no abiding place for our return. But when we return from error, we return by realising the Truth; that we may realise it, He instructs us, for He is the Beginning who also speaks unto us.
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Why, I beseech you, O Lord my God, is this? In a way, I see it, but how I am to express it I do not know, unless it is because whatever begins to be, and then ceases to be, does then begin to be and then cease to be when it is known in your eternal reason, wherein nothing begins or ceases, that it must begin or cease. This is your Word, which is also the beginning because it also speaks to us. Thus in the Gospel he speaks through the flesh, and this word sounded outwardly in the ears of men, so that it might be believed, and sought inwardly, and found in the eternal Truth where the sole good Master teaches all his disciples. There, O Lord, I hear your voice speaking to me, since he who teaches us speaks to us. But a man who does not teach us, even though he speaks, does not speak to us. Who teaches us now, unless it be stable Truth? Even when we are admonished by a changeable creature, we are led to stable Truth, where we truly learn "while we stand and hear him" and "rejoice with joy because of the bridegroom's voice" restoring us to him from whom we are.
Therefore, he is a beginning, for unless he abided when we went astray, he would not be there when we returned. But when return from error, we truly return by knowing that we do so, and that we may know this, he teaches us, because he is the beginning and he speaks to us.
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Why is this so, O Lord my God? In some degree I see why it is, but I do not know how to put it into words except by saying that whatever begins to be, or ceases to be, does so at the moment when the eternal reason knows that it should begin to be or cease to be, although in the eternal reason there is no beginning and no ending. The eternal reason is your Word, who is also the Beginning, because he also speaks to us. So he tells us in the Gospel by word of mouth. Your Word, the Beginning, made himself audible to the bodily ears of men, so that they should believe in him and, by looking for him within themselves, should find him in the eternal Truth, where the one good Master teaches all who listen to him. It is there that I hear your voice, O Lord, telling me that only a master who really teaches us really speaks to us: if he does not teach us, even though he may be speaking, it is not to us that he speaks. But who is our teacher except the Truth which never changes? Even when we learn from created things, which are subject to change, we are led to the Truth which does not change. And there we truly learn, as we stand by and listen to him and rejoice at hearing the bridegroom's voice, restoring ourselves to him who gave us our being. He is therefore the Beginning, the abiding Principle, for unless he remained when we wandered in error, there would be none to whom we could return and restore ourselves. But when we return from error, we return by knowing the Truth; and in order that we may know the Truth, he teaches us, because he is the Beginning and he also speaks to us.
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Why, I ask, Lord my God? In some degree I see it, but how to express it I do not know, unless to say that everything which begins to be and ceases to be begins and ends its existence at that moment when, in the eternal reason where nothing begins or ends, it is known that it is right for it to begin and end. This reason is your Word, which is also the Beginning in that it also speaks to us. Thus in the gospel the Word speaks through the flesh, and this sounded externally in human ears, so that it should be believed and sought inwardly, found in the eternal truth where the Master who alone is good (Matt. 19: 16) teaches all his disciples. There, Lord, I hear your voice speaking to me, for one who teaches us speaks to us, but one who does not teach us, even though he may speak, does not speak to us. Who is our teacher except the reliable truth? Even when we are instructed through some mutable creature, we are led to reliable truth when we are learning truly by standing still and listening to him, We then 'rejoice with joy because of the voice of the bridegroom' (John 3:29), and give ourselves to the source whence we have our being. And in this way he is the Beginning because, unless he were constant, there would be no fixed point to which we could return. But when we return from error, it is by knowing that we return. He teaches us that we may know, for he is the Beginning, and he speaks to us.
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Why is this, I ask, O Lord my God? I do understand to some degree, but I do not know how to articulate it, except like this: everything which begins to exist and then ceases to exist does so at the due time for its beginning and cessation decreed in that eternal Reason where nothing begins or comes to an end. This eternal Reason is your Word, who is "the Beginning" in that he also speaks to us. The gospel records that he claimed this by word of mouth, making his claim audible to people's outward ears that they might believe him and seek him within themselves and find him in the eternal Truth where he, our sole teacher, instructs apt disciples. There it is that I hear your voice, O Lord, the voice of one who speaks to me, because anyone who truly teaches us speaks to us directly, whereas one who is no true teacher does not speak to us, though speak he may. After all, can anyone teach us, other than stable Truth? When some changeable creature advises us, we are but led to that stable Truth, where we truly learn as we stand and listen to him, and are filled with joy on hearing the Bridegroom's voice, and surrender ourselves once more to him from whom we came. He is "the Beginning" for us in the sense that if he were not abidingly the same, we should have nowhere to return to after going astray. When we turn back from our errant ways it is by acknowledging the truth that we turn back, and he it is who teaches us to acknowledge it, because he is "the Beginning" who speaks to us.
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Why is this so, O Lord? I see why after a fashion, but how to express it I do not know, unless by saying that everything that begins or ceases to be, begins or ceases to be at just that moment when it is deemed in the eternal Reason, in which nothing begins or ceases, that it ought to have begun or ceased. That Reason is your Word, who is also the Beginning, for he also speaks to us (Jn 8.25). Thus he says in the Gospel through the flesh; he uttered these outward sounds for the ears of men, to the end that they might believe and seek and find (Matt. 7:7) him inwardly in the eternal Truth, where the good and only Teacher teaches all his disciples. It is here that I hear your voice, O Lord, as you tell me that he who speaks to us is he who teaches us, and that he who does not teach us, even though he speaks, does not speak to us. And who is our teacher, if not the abiding Truth? Even when we receive intimations through your creation, which is subject to change, it is to the abiding Truth that we are led. There we learn in truth, when we abide and listen to him and rejoice greatly at the voice of the Bridegroom (Jn 3.29), and return ourselves to our source. He is the Beginning, for if he did not remain firm while we went astray, there would be no place to which we could return. But when we return from our wandering, it is by coming to know the Truth that we return. In order that we might come to know the Truth, he teaches us, for he is the Beginning, and he speaks to us (Jn 8.25).
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Why should this be so, I ask you, Lord my God? I have some grasp of it, but how to explain it is beyond me, unless I can put it this way: All things that begin to be or cease being do so when your eternal reason, which neither begins nor ceases, knows that it ought to begin or cease. That reason is your Word, ‘the origin, since he speaks to us' as such—-for so in the gospel [of John] he spoke in his incarnate self, and these words sounded externally in men's ears, that it might be believed and internally examined, and understood in the eternal truth where all learn from him who is the true and ‘only teacher.' There I listen to your voice speaking to me—for all teachers must speak to us, and those not teaching might speak without speaking to us—and who can teach but the immutable truth? Even when we are pointed toward the truth by a mutable human, we are being guided toward the immutable truth where we truly learn by waiting for and listening to him and, overjoyed with ‘joy at the Bridegroom's voice,' we return ourselves to our own origin. He is our origin, since we would have no place to return after wandering unless he were continuously there. And whenever we return from wandering, it is by understanding that we are returning, and he teaches us to understand this because he is ‘the origin insofar as he speaks to us.'
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But please tell me, my Master and God—why? Somehow I see it, but I don't know how to state it except in the following way. Everything that begins or ceases to exist does so at that moment when it is recognized that now it needs to do so; and this is recognized by an eternal reasoning, in which nothing begins and nothing ends.
This act of reasoning is your Word, which is also the principium, "the beginning," or "the first, guiding principle or authority," because it also speaks to us. In this way, in the Gospel the Word speaks through the flesh, and this Word was heard outwardly by human ears so that we would believe, and so that inwardly the Word would be sought and found in eternal truth, where the good teacher, who is the only teacher, teaches all his students.
There, inwardly, I hear your voice, Master, as you speak to me, because the one who speaks to us teaches us. On the other hand, if anyone doesn't teach us, even if he's speaking he's not speaking to us. What, then, teaches us if not the truth that stands fast?
Even when we're prompted by changeable creation, we're led to the truth that stands steady. There we truly learn, when we stand and hear him and rejoice beyond rejoicing at the voice of the betrothed, and return, and restore ourselves to the source of our being.
In this way, it is the beginning, the starting point, the first authority or principle, because unless it stayed steady while we wandered around, there would be no place to return to. When we return from our wandering, we do that by an act of recognition. The Word teaches us, so that we can recognize it as the beginning and the first guiding principal or authority, which speaks to us.
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Why is this, I ask you, O Lord my God? I do see it, in a way, but I do not know how to express it, unless it is because all that begins to be and ceases to be begins and ceases at the right time as it is known in the eternal reason where nothing either begins or ceases. This is your eternal Word, who is also the Beginning, because he speaks to us. In this way he speaks to us in the Gospel through the flesh; he proclaimed it outwardly to human ears so that the word might be believed and sought within and found in that eternal Truth where the good Teacher, the only Teacher, teaches all his students. In that eternal Truth, O Lord, I hear your voice, the voice of one who is speaking to me. For anyone who teaches us speaks to us, whereas one who does not teach us does not speak to us, even if he does speak. And indeed what teaches us, besides unwavering Truth? For even when we are admonished by a changeable creature, we are led to unwavering Truth; that is where we truly learn when we stand and listen to him and exult with joy because of the bridegroom's voice, giving ourselves back to him from whom we have our being. And this is why he is the Beginning; for if he did not abide when we went astray, there would be nowhere for us to return. Now when we return from error, it is of course by knowing that we return; and in order that we might know, he teaches us, because he is the Beginning and speaks to us.
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